"... I found the one my heart loves."

Though the book Song of Songs has received mixed responses, it is one of my favorite books in the Bible. It may be because I'm an emotional and or a romantic person, but I don't see the book as necessarily an erotic book. It's simply romantic to me.
I guess what I like about it is that God wants romance in our love, in our relationship with our spouse. There is not only passion, but also maturity in the three reminders saying,  "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." (Song of Songs 8:4)

I also appreciate Solomon and his wife's mutual desire to be role models and looking after a friend, a sister, who is not yet an adult and inexperienced in love. This really hits me in what I'd love to have in a relationship: spiritual maturity and growth. Being with a man who pushes/encourages me to love Jesus Christ more and more, to always be hungry for more of Jesus, and who loves me second to Christ, I will be very much blessed. I also hope that I will be able to do the same for him.

Sometimes that sort of relationship feels intimidating for me, because it can mean being in difficult situations where my plans may be interrupted by God. However, I know that God's plans are greater than mine. Still, I know that when it happens, it might cause me hesitate; I can only hope that I will made humble and follow His plans.
When my husband is in a low point in his life, I want to be able to patiently help and work with him. Maybe he won't need or want my help, and when it comes to that, I want to patiently wait, pray, and know that God is with him and helping him overcome even when I can't. Because He is greater than I am.

Though I am not ready to be in a committed relationship, I certainly look forward to it. Not because the emotions are there, but because he is my best friend and I see Christ resounding in his life.

[Something that some Christians misunderstand that just because the person they like is Christian, they should just go for them. However, that is not the right way to look at it. Yes, whether or not the person is a Christian (a growing Christian!) should be your first filter. BUT are you two even compatible? I know a lot of great, Christian guys, but would I date them just because of that? Probably not, because we don't have too much in common. Plus, I don't think God wants us to date/marry willy nilly solely on the basis that we share His gift of grace. There's gotta be some more chemistry and connection.]

Well, back to my original reason of saying all of this... ^^;

This past year, my parents bought a pair of Mr. and Mrs. coffee mugs (the cutest things, they got a nice modern look). Inside the rim of the mugs, is this saying: I found the one my heart loves. - Song of Songs 3:4. Ever since, that verse has stayed in the back of my mind. It would just come to me in the most random of times (commuting, school, meals, in the shower), and each time, I think of my parents' marriage and I think, "I want to have that".

I know I'm still a ways away from making the second most important decision in my life, but... I'm excited and I will wait for the day when I look down on my left ring finger, where there sits a silver band, with words inscribed on it "I found the one my heart loves."

< yes, that's what I'd like for my wedding band :] >