I want to start by saying, I never knew that I'd be posting more about my faith than what I originally intended, which was my art work and other miscellaneous rants. But I guess that just goes to show you and myself about how much more important my Christian faith has become in my life. To be brief, I am coming to understand what it really means to take up my cross and follow Christ. And honestly, it has been a real ride. A good ride.
A couple of my past posts have been dwelling over someone. Someone who I grew to care about, but it has been a rough time. In the end, I realized that I was starting to make similar mistakes in a past experience: I was starting to place that person over what should be the most important thing to me; my relationship with God. In the end, God pulled me out of my messy situation even if I had to feel hurt in the process. But it was good. It was necessary. It was what I needed.
A part of God's process in healing me was through getting back into His Word, being more honest with my family (biological and church), and also through a special someone, because it'll be a long story. But the point of this post is, God is good. All the time. No, He seriously is!
(Augh, I can talk about so many things branching off from this post alone, but I don't have the time to, nor is it the purpose of this particular post.)
I kind of want to make this fairly short, so I'll get straight to the point.
I've been through a lot of emotional and spiritual distress and I have not seen one moment where God has failed me. Never. Even when I feel at my lowest point, slowly but definitely, God was working in my life at my side for the better. There are a lot of lies that I tend to fall into and it tears me up from the inside, but every time I bow my head or look up, and just say, "God, I can't do this! I need Your help!" He answers. Leaving things in God's hands is to give up all of your desire to control things for your desired outcome. These past three months, I've come to fully understand that God's plan really is the best plan for me. Starting the second semester of my freshman year of college, I saw myself growing spiritually immensely and I have never felt such peace and joy in my life. Yes, sometimes it's tough. It's not easy to be Christian, but you know, God already told us it'd be hard. But it's all worth it in the end, because I'm alive because of a God who loves me so much that He came and died to repare the distance between us. How amazing for a love like that to exist? The best part: it does :]
If you're a Christian and feeling stuck, don't give up. Look up to Him who is more powerful than anything in all the universe, whose heart is bigger than all the universe. If you're not, then just ponder on what you've just read. I'm sure you have a lot of questions of your own.
Until next time :]
"I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
John 10:10
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